Choices, Choices.....

The thought of Grad School is a constant thought of mine. I keep having the dream that I get accepted into my number one pick. I move all of my belongs to the new city and the first semester I fall all of my classes. I don't what it is.... I would like to pursue an M.P.H. degree and I am soooo very excited about it. I guess that I'm just really intimidated by the whole idea of grad school. I am very excited at the same time, I mean the journey that you go through further understanding who you are and continuously growing into a better person. Understanding that you really only have one life to live so experience as much as you can. I yearn so much to attend school out of my comfort zone so that once again I will be force to "Man-Up" on life. I feel that the more cultured I am the more my children will be and the more their children will be cultured. I want to be able to look back on my life and truly understand struggle, and overcoming that struggle.

My "current job" is one of the main catalyst that is pushing me so hard to go to Grad school quickly.

I have about 7 colleges that I am looking at and have sent my information to. They vary from warm summer breeze of the south to the freezing north. I really want to expand my horizons and experience something new and different.


My...umm "man":

I love him so dearly and though I never wanted to speak about my personal life too much in blogsphere....it makes me a little sad about the fact that we may be separated for the duration of my schooling. He is so supportive and loving and I just hate it, but I have to accomplish this goal and I guess his wonderful spirit gives me a peace of mind about the potential challenge that we may face (Thank GOD for airplanes).


My intermediate Family:

They are the BEST!!! Always so supportive and pushing me to think out side the box and create my own paths in life. They have been the most supportive and inspiring.


My extended family:

How the mirror isn't so clear....I mean I would have never guessed that this would be the case. My own family not willing to share the most joyful times of my life and in our family's life. I was the sadden at the reaction of some when I got accepted to a University hours away from home. Many congratulated, but so many were unsupported. I mean I was blown away...and still is does. I mean how could your own family turn against you especially when it in regards to education....WHAT??!! And to top that, on one of the biggest accomplishments so far in my life I did not receive one call/text/email/message in the sky....nothing. I bothers me so, and I fear that my children will not know many of my extended family for the simple fact that they're so hung up on me and the choices that I've made for my life, i.e. moving away and seeing what the world has to offer, instead of being supportive and happy for me.....and guess what? They had the nerve to imply that I have forgot where I've come from...what the hell??? Okay, so going away to school and getting out of my comfort zone unlike you makes me forget where I come from??? Please.......uhhhhh!!! I don't think that this will ever be solved. Except for maybe one or two or them, no one ever calls or see's if I'm breathing. I guess I'm trippin' because you see it wasn't always like that. This shift started to occur about four years ago, when I went off to college. So, my choose today to accept that this is my reality when it comes to that part of my family.