New Year, same mess!

Happy New Year!

I always feel like this time of year people tend feel their hearts with a false since of hope....As if this new change in the New Year will erase all of their disparities, worries and shortcomings. Oh, but when those things do not come to pass your year begins to emulate last years troubles (I hate this).

I never really create this loooonnnng list of "I promises" and "I will not's". This year I will change my perception on things. I feel this will be more life altering than setting myself up for potential failure and disappointments.


In an earlier blog I made a list of things that I wanted to do to enrich my life and I actually have done some of those things. I now have my yoga mat and yoga dvd's so I am on it and I plan to travel to the Cayman Islands for my birthday this year (I can't wait)! I will not subject myself to non-positive things, people and situations....if you let, them they will suck the life out of you....(I have experienced this first hand). I mean really we all have choices and those same choices can and will change the way or how much you enjoy and live your life. As I have said many times, I tend to try to control all aspects of my life and I made a decision to not take part in that any longer.

For the last 6 months I can admit, I lost site of my core value. My mother raised me to be a very self aware, humble spirited women, but when you find yourself overwhelmed with situations you tend to loose site of you. The things that make you happy the most, what you dislike the most.....

FRIENDS (or not):

They have taught me that I don't have to figure out who is a true friend or not, because through their actions their true hearts will be revealed (which is the most rewarding).


RELATIONSHIPS (or not):

They will never be easy,but to love someone should never be hard.....and if to love someone leaves you needing a resuscitation you might need to reevaluate somethings even if it hurts.

LIFE:

Fulfill your life with such greatness that it becomes the norm for you so that where ever you are you will never accept anything less than such!


PAINTING:

Painting makes my inner soul so at peace and it makes my inside smile! Find that something that feeds those parts of you that no man (flesh) can ever bring light to.


I send love to all and Happy New Year's again....I hope that you live a better life in 2009 and treat others better as well because at the end the day you could be selfish, but what lonely life you will have............



Peace and love,

Seeking of Essence